I have felt pain, anxiety, hopelessness and discomfort, just to name a few. Now I feel, joy, gratitude, happiness, love, support, comfort, compassion and ease. I have been able to move from those debilitating feelings and emotions and let the positive shine through.
My goal is to help as many people as possible do the same thing so they don’t have to suffer a minute longer. Helping others helps me stay in the light so my son, Sawyer, never has to see me in that darkness. And so I never have to feel that level of darkness again.
In 2016, new jobs, new pressures, marriage, baby, family, friends, the universe happened and I was finding it hard to cope with life so I coped in ways I knew “worked.” Most of which were terribly unhealthy and just aided in my downward cycle of losing myself. Then I found the deeper side of yoga. The true side of yoga. The root of yoga. I found a peace that made it ok to sit and process through anger. I didn’t realize my whole life I pushed away anger and hid it away like it was a terrible secret and didn’t exist. News flash…it does and it is perfectly ok to be angry sometimes, even for things you can justify. I realized it is ok not to have a perky, smile on my face at all times. I enjoy being happy and am a truly happy person to the core of my being but that happiness should shine naturally. If it is a little dim one day than there is no need to hook up the KC lights and shine the false fake light. I realized being a mom is freaking hard and I am going to feel like I am failing a lot but at the end of the day, my heart knows better. I can say with the utmost certainty that I am a wonderful mom. I am now able to see that there is NOTHING in this world that I can’t face, process and walk through. I am able to look at challenges and tough times with an optimistic outlook…I am able to laugh and say, “Ok, universe…what are you going to teach me today?” All of those things making me a better, more compassionate, enlightened human being.
The spiritual gifts that I was able to get from yoga were too strong to keep to myself. So through much encouragement, support and spiritual guidance I made the decision to get my yoga certification at Inner Vision Yoga and started my teaching journey. My teaching goes deeper than just giving you a good workout…believe you will get your workout, that’s a promise…but my goal is to accomplish the whole package of working out body, mind & spirit. My goal is to give you a safe, nonjudgmental, beautiful, supportive space to come into and practice whatever it is you want to practice that day. After all, it is your practice. I am just here to help and give you my experience on what worked for me.In
Mindfulness. Faith. Action. Balance. I live mindfully so I can see where I need to insert faith, action or balance or all of the above. I try to live and support my family in the healthiest way I can. I am not perfect but I do try. It all starts and ends with being mindful and listening to my body, mind & spirit. If I am healthy I can put my best foot forward for my family & friends.
My definition of meditation is intentionally being mindful, clearing my thoughts, following my breath and allowing my body and mind to be still for any period of time. Boom. Done. This is what I do. I may be driving. I may be in my house. I may be by a lake. It doesn’t matter where or how, it matters that you do it. I watch it work every single time I use the practice. Patience. Peace. Compassion. Kindness. Clarity. Enlightenment. The list goes on and on. Meditation is a simple practice with big results. I hear this all the time, “I can’t meditate because I can’t shut my mind off.” My reply, “Do you think that you could play the piano like Beethoven on your first try?” It is called a practice for a reason. Practice makes progress.